PENDAM

haii. :) ajin an aku update ? ceceyy. buat tak knai aku. mau tauu lerr. :D okayy, asa2 ampa, blog aku nmpak gedik dak ? agk lah kn ? ahahahhaa. :P biaq biaq :P hmm. post kali nih for sure 100% about my OWN LIFE. banyak bnda act aku nk luah kat sini. tp pk balik, dah masuk 3 taun aku ada blog nii. aku dh tau cara/bhsa yg harus aku gunakan. tak terlalu kasar, tak terlalu direct tp aku puas. yg tuh method yg aku guna utk blog aku. :) 

Cerita pertama,

Ang 'kawan' aku smnjak 2009 lg. 1st kita knai, sbb ang 'kawan' kpd 'kawan' aku. Kenai pun dlm facebook, strusnya dlm tagged dan myspace. tup tup, kita tjumpa kat skolah. plus, ang nk aku jd 'kawan' ang. aku pun okayy la.. :) ya, aku ngaku, bila aku ada masalah saja, ang lah owg 1st yg care pasai aku. tak pun, ang sndri yg tau. aku pun tatau kuasa apa yg ada kat ang. :') aku mmg terharu. sbb tuh aku syg ang wahai 'kawanku'. Time kita mula kenai tuu, ang 'break' dgn psgn ang. Ya, kita sama2 share smua bnda. Masa tuu, aku dh mula syg ang. Aku dh anggap ang owg yg sgt pnting dlm idup aku. Tp skrg ? bila psgn ang dtg balik, ang lupa aku terus kn ? please lah weyy, kita 'kawan' ja punn. Takkan yg tuu pun psgn ang tak bg ? okayy. disini aku nk tekankn, ohh fine. Psgn ang tuh mayb jelez bila kita kumen2/wall to wall dlm fb. Ang kata takut dy salah phm. ceh, kononnya ang nk jga hati dy la ? oh please, tp ang msj aku ? ang chat aku ? takkah ang asa ang dah mnipu psgn ang tuu ? please lah weyy, btter wall to wall/kumen2 dlm fb. sbb biaq psgn ang tau apa yg kita duk smbg. -.- perghhh~ KONON NK JAGA HATI PASANGAN, TAPI MAIN BELAKANG DIA. APA KES WEH ? :) takpa, it was quite funny for me. tkeluaq usus yg tak spatutnya. HAHAHA. -.- takpa la, mmg aku duk asa bnda nih akn tjadi. kpd pasangan ang tuh pulak, pndai pulak cari aku bila dy tgh susah ? awat manusia perlu cm nih ah  -.- depa tak malu ka apa respond owg kat depa ? perghh. JAGA MARUAH AMPA WWEHH ! :)

Cerita kedua,

Ang penah agung-agungkan aku. Ang penah share smua psai ang kat aku. Ya, smntara aku, aku tak share spnuhnya psai life aku. sbb aku jneh pendam. Ang penah nangis, aku penah nangis sbb ang. ada ang tau ? tatau kn ? sbb, sbb ang tak penah tau pun yg aku syg ang gila gila. Bila aku p mana2 yg ada kaitan ngn ang, ang tau ka pkara ptama yg aku buat ? takkan ? u know what, i'm being like a stupid person , searching for you every seconds. -.- mai mai, ang duk gelak ketawa dgn ****. Ntahla, aku bukan tak bg ang rapat ngn ****, tp tlonglah. pegang dgn kata2 ang. and Please, dont treat me like this. I miss you so much. How can i tell you ? When i can tell it ? Where ?? you always busy with ur 'bussiness'. Dulu ang care pasai aku. Dulu ang sntiasa nk aku berada dlm keadaan duduk bgelak. Siyezly, skrg ang banyak bubah. Okayy, aku tak mau bg ang asa besalah, aku tkmau bg ang asa tension. :) i'm okayy. Got it ? i just wanna say that i need sum1 that i can trust or hold. :') Like you did before. Plus, smnjak ang ada suasana baru, ada pkwe, ang ada kawan ramai. Maybe lah. aku kata MAYBE. maybe ang dah lupa aku kut. :') it's okay it's alright, come on derma fight fight fight ! hahahaa. *nahh, deret takda kaitan*

Aku tingin nk life aku mcm dlu. Aku tingin perhatian drpd smua org. Aku nk buang pnyakit aku yg jneh pndam nih. Aku nk prgai REMPANG aku dlu. Aku tkmau dah jga ati owg. Can i ? :/ Aku dh takley bawak prgai PENDAM aku nih smpai mati. Sbb makin hari makin teruk. plus, kat dewan td dh tbukti. Aku malu ngn diri aku. Yang takley dgr lagu sedeh, takley dgr ayat puitis. Air mata aku scara tak lgsung akan jatuh. Awat lemah farhana ? smnjak bila farhana ? Mana 'fana laugh.laugh.laugh' ang ? Mana gelak ang yg mcm kartun woodpecker tuu ? :'( Siyez, aku malu dlm dewan td. Tak larat duk tnduk bila majlis persaraan cegu Tan td. even aku bukan sedeh sbb dy, tp aku sedeh bila ada suasana sedeh. Aku malu bila mata mata budak Form 3 asyik tgk ke arah aku saja td. :'( 'FANA LAUGH' , i need you back. seriously,

Pendam, please get lost from my life. :D